Today I am thankful for my blog. My laptop was stolen last year and lazy me had never moved photos off it and onto my harddrive, just now Ive been stalking myself and found some old photos that I no longer had. Just earler I complained to my mum that I hate technology when she tried to suggest internet dating (fuck ive not been single a day and im only 21) but now I have a small appreciation for the ability to blog
Im feeling really lost in life right now. I came home from my overseas adventures and moved straight in with my boyfriend (probably a mistake in itself but it felt right at the time) our happiness didnt really last that long though, once I got a job and had less time I started noticing the negative things about my partner and asked him to help out more, but nothing changed and our relationship just went down hill very quickly. Now 9 months on our lease just ended and we moved apart in the hopes that we might value our time together more and maybe improve (I’m however incredibly pessimistic about this… not to say I dont want it to work out though), 1 week apart and tonight we fought and I really feel as though this is the end.
As much as I like my new housemates so far, I have anxiety and have never lived with people I dont know before, so of course I’m feeling super anxious and pretty lonely right now. Im not loving my job and I’m not doing as well as I should be considering I work for commission and all in all I’m just feeling pretty crap and need to have this rant.
I wish I could buy a puppy or a kitten cause I feel like that would cheer me up. I miss my pup
i have a laptop again… what is my life